Psalm 34:4
So…. Its been awhile since I’ve posted… obviously..
I’m sure you’re familiar with how busy the holidays get and it’s no different here. On top of that, things spiritually have been crazy the last few months with a lot of stuff coming at me that I’ve had to sort through and figure out what to do with it. Things like false teachings and teachers creeping into not only the church I attend, but the church worldwide. It’s been happening for some time, and really all of church history, but people in my circles have become more aware of the modern push of these things more recently and it’s been quite the upsetting. This is not the only thing that has come up though. I briefly mentioned in one of my last posts that I’ve been having to address something in our church with a few people and the leadership. Things are still in the works on that because they’ve taken a pause during the holidays. Now that things are getting back on schedule, I am looking to move forward on these things. God has been teaching me a lot through all of this and I’ve had some major spiritual and character growth. I’ve been stretched to confront things that are hard and messy which is not my natural tendency, but I do not live in the natural any longer. I am not called to a spirit of fear, but a spirit of Love and courage. If I didn’t address these messy hard things then I’d be lazy and ignoring, which is not loving to just let things go and let people continue on in their ways when it’s something that is unfruitful. It’s more of helping them come to the right understanding of God’s will for them, and their true identity. It’s an area of life that I have been delivered from and when I never expected God to use that part of my story, he seems to be doing so. It’s not something that I want to share about until this whole situation is over. This has really made me step up into the qualities and character of a true leader. Since I have been in a leadership position in our women’s ministry, it is only fitting. This is not where I would have pictured myself serving the Lord, if you had asked me in the beginning of this walk with Christ. Because all my life I have been the one to let others take the lead and never wanted to be the one in front of the group or leading and teaching people. I always wanted to be the quiet one doing the work in the background, like a stagehand, and let others take the spotlight. I still sometimes would rather be that person. I am still not at a place where I voluntarily want to be the one with the microphone leading anything. I shake and tremble with anxiety any time I have to confront things and I did that when I had to confront this situation. But I know God is with me and it’s not about how my body may be reacting, it’s about the love that’s coming from my heart for the person. Last month, I was drawn to a daily devotional through the bible app on my phone. This is the “Youversion” bible app. I was drawn to one called “The Deborah Anointing” because it was about discovering and growing in the calling God has for you. I already know what my calling is, but I don’t know the process or what it all entails yet. I want to discover more of what it’s all about and grow in the qualities and character I will need for this journey and assignment. This devotion was just what I need. God ordained for me to discover because it’s a very short version of a book that was written called “The Deborah Anointing” by Michelle McClain-Walters which you can find on Amazon here. Every day of this devotional was exactly what I needed to hear. It was so powerful, I bought the book and study guide which you can also find on Amazon. I have so far read the Intro and first 2 Chapters. I’ve really learned a lot already and this was meant to be. I praise God for how he has led me to this. I am excited for this years growth in what God has for me. One thing the book points out is that there are seasons and a process to the calling God has for you. The seasons I have already discovered before I even read this book because for the last 3.5 years, each season has brought the changes that this book talks about. Winter is a time for dieing to self, resting, listening to God’s voice and planning for the season ahead. Spring is a time to start working the soil and planting, meaning putting into action what I’ve learned through the Winter. Summer is a time of growth and refining from heat/pressure, and further acting on things, and learning to balance home life with spiritual life. Which is important since kids are out of school. Me being a mother, I will need to balance my time of being a mother and wife, with my spiritual responsibilities. I do that anyways already but it will be a bit different since I won’t have the time while my son is in school most of the day Monday-Friday to devote to my time with God. Fall, I’m sure you can guess what this brings… a time of harvest! Reaping what has been sown and seeing the fruit of your labor. I have been learning a lot about Deborah of the bible, from the book of Judges. So much more than I would have thought could be learned about or from her. It’s really quite amazing! I am also learning a lot about myself and God. One important thing for me to remember that the book pointed out, is that this all is a process and takes time. I’m not going to be in the fullest of my calling right away. Which is good because some of the things scare me, because I am still young and don’t feel adequate enough to do. God is good and just like precious diamonds, he molds us with time, in to the fullness of who he’s called and created us to be. So that’s just a little bit of what’s been going on with me this season. I am going to be creating a vision board soon with some other Christian ladies and at first I honestly had no interest in doing one because I already know pretty much what the vision is for me this year. Then, after talking with a dear friend who felt the same but went to one and did it and actually changed her mind, I have also changed my mind about it. Yes, I already have my vision but this will give me a visual of it to keep it in the forefront every day because I will be putting it by my bed where I will see it every morning when I wake up, and every night when I go to bed. It will help me keep my focus on my purpose and those who I am praying for. It will help me to keep my eyes on Jesus. And hopefully starting my day out right away, I won’t get distracted and forget. Like I tend to do when I’ve made a list of the people and things I want to pray for but since it’s not always open in a place where I will see it, I forget. I would encourage you to do the same. Heavenly Father, I just pray for anyone reading this that you would help them to see their value and purpose. Help them discover the calling you have for their life and even if that’s just being a friend, son, daughter, father, mother, husband, or wife right now, help them realize that and be settled in that. First we are children of God, second we are a husband or wife if we’re married, a son or daughter if we’ve not yet left our parents home, a brother or sister, and then we are parents, and friends. But all of that is encompassed in being a child of God. We have great ministry in ministering to those closest to us, our family, and friends by just being who we were created to be in whatever function that is. Taking care of the home or helping our family take care of the home, or in helping a friend. If you have a more widespread calling than that, give supernatural wisdom, courage, hope, faith and love to them to walk it out. Help us to become love and spread that love like wildfire because the world needs it. In love is truth and we need to speak truth to those around us, no matter how hard or messy it is. Help inspire us to spread truth and spread the gospel to others. Thank you Father for all your wonderful presence in our lives. In Jesus name I pray, amen! It’s Winter season and I am resting and planning for the next season ahead to start taking further action locally to hopefully hold some workshops at our home to help bring awareness, and equip the local body of Christ. Stay tuned!
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